“Just as the progress and direction of science is determined by the questions we ask, so is our personal growth. Our questions express our visions and lead us into the future…” – LJ SHEPHERD.
Quite a way to begin I’m sure, and I dont quite know the meaning of that quote….but I’m finding out more and more about myself all the time. This year really has been a journey of self-discovery – its been very hard, I’ve lost some people who were very close to me, realised there’s things I can never have….and that pretty soon, my life is going to undergo a hectic transformation – the step out into the so-called ‘real world’…So then a number of questions raise themselves:
- Who will I still be close friends with this time next year?
- what will my memories be of those who’ve moved on to greener pastures ?
- Would I change anything about what I’ve done in the last 3 and a bit years?
- What decisions did I make, and how did I arrive at them?
Anyway, on to the title of my blog – the Sea Side Bakery….Comes from one night after Tiger – when I went with Q*, Lee, Jared and Mark to ‘DHS Pool’ – we kidnapped Jared, took him to Umhlanga beach…Smoked a spliff and swam naked in the moonlight. Was amazing. Was kinda heart-breaking at the same time….because I realised that these kinds of madness evenings aren’t going to be happening for much longer, and that I must get as many of them in as I can…
It was just so magical – the whole night while we were at Tiger it was raining – and as we left to go to the beach it cleared up, and the moon was so bright, and the sea so warm. I remember us racing down the road, with Jared hanging his bum out the window and mooning Lee and Mark, and how priceless their reaction was. I remember walking back to the car after our swim, wearing Q*’s boobtube top as a dress. And watching Lee walk in front of me. I know that chapter of my life (if one can even call it that) is long closed…. but sometimes I think ‘what if?’…. and those are the worst moments…
Also shoulda been at Splashy this year…but the line up just seemed a bit of a waste…I’m actually one of those people who go to watch the bands… 2004 was a good year – the year I met Nardi. 2005 was the year I met Orlando – loser.!But yeah, Splashy is one awesome experience, dont know if I will be able to repeat – depends where I am next year.
Ooh, looky, getting all sentimental – was just reading my best friend’s blog and she was being all nostalgic – and it made me start pondering the past too.
But, as I set out at the beginning of this post by quoting that guy – its all about the future. And asking questions. And hopefully getting some answers…And well this may sound super-corny… Life can only be a trial-and-error experience…Much like science…
One LAST quote:
“Never be bullied into silence. Never allow yourself to be a victim. Accept no one’s definition of your life. Define yourself…” – HARVEY FIERSTEIN
(By the way – I have no idea where I found these pictures – so I can’t acknowledge the creators – sorry)
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